well recent life. you just a knew a blog was comin. from my last posts, obviously shit wasnt crackin in the early stages of the week. everything i had planned basically blew up in my face. classes kicked my ass. work kicked my ass. girls tried to kick my ass. life was basically on an ass kicking spree by tuesday. i almost gave in ..i almost quit. but that was before. that was the old me. that was the immature me. and i could feel it inside and hear it screaming to get out. but as they say in english and spanish .."no" ..i didnt let it. suprisingly my determination overpowered it and i made it to wednesday. haha. woke up wednesday morning and tried again to fix what didnt happen on monday. same result. ass kicked again. so i figured that a doubledouble would give me temporary happiness. goodgrub and goodtalks with goodfriends made me realize a few things and only motivate me more. (thanks). i had basketball practice later on that evening, and i never looked forward to it as much as i did that night. i just wanted to run. run and run and run and runnn. maybe a little too much since some fools couldnt hang and yacked during practice. haha. bitches. anyways, basketball provided me with a little relief and peace of mind ..but then there was still thursday. different day, same result. no progression. fuck. that night there was more basketball and i took that shit out on OC. (and imma take it out on delano this sunday) ..anyways, afterwards we all chilled at my house and again i held out on a little temptation. found other things to do. i wrote for the first time in years. and at 4 in the a.m. i got back on my school shit. emailed helllla professors asking if there was anyway they could squeeze me into classes. emailed even the ones that said no before. i was soo drained by this point that i just knocked out ..but i remember right before i slept, i prayed. i said if this is his way of testing me ..then bring it. i went to sleep that night with a week of school behind me and only 3 units. i woke up the next morning with emails from professors and 13 point fuckin 5 units! relieffff!! that feeling was just something else ..and i know its only the beginning. friday night i was suppposed to hang out with a few people i promised.. but thanks to no service and my phone dying i was forced to stick with plan b.. bbq'n with a bunch of my closest friends. hahah not too shabby. saturday consisted of more practice, throwin rocks, and finally seeing some little party animal. it was chilllll. the next morning i had to drive to beverly hills to pick up my nephews $500 cake. i get there only to find out that shit didnt fit in my car. akljklajdklfs. so i make the trip back home to get the bigger car.. and do it all over again. kill me. after that mission, jolo rolled with me to pump it up for joaquins bday party. shit was legit!!! definitely gotta go back. its a must. we jumped (alot), grubbed, then had to bounce reallll early cause i had a volleyball game. when i got there the game was already starting and i realized i didnt have the right uniform. kill me again. so i had to rock rachels lady knights jersey. hahah. it was our first time playing together as a team and we never practiced once.. yea, we lost. but we have potential to be siiick this year. thats not the major point though ..that game marked my first one in two years. the last time i was on that court i left with tears in my eyes. never ever again. i promise that. it felt amazing to be out there on that court. i cant fuckin wait til our game this sunday. afffterrr sportsfest i headed to the st.marias with randy. our new band the hella's were formed, and it was my little get-a-way for the week. fun and needed. perfect way to end the week. well besides the fact that randy and i were in no wayyyy in any shape to drive home. haha fuck it. now onto week number two. i have a feeling its gonna get even harder ..but im gettin used to this handlin' shit. ......"bring it"
