question marks and birthday candles.

wattap creeps. i suppose i'll start this one off with a weekend recap. it was a pretty long and exhausting one, or so it seemed. my weekends start on thursday so i'll lead it off there ..lots of frosted flakes this week btw. but no worries. seems like plan B's are the story of my life. anyways, thursday didnt go where i was supposed to go and ended up babysitting someone with a fucked up eye until she felt better. idk. friday.. made my money and made up with fwends in the a.m. ..lata rolled out to the 949 for a journey of a run to yogurtland with two fat people. after we headed out to a friend of a friends 21st bday fiesta. it was chill until the part where someone got sick. someone got too fucked up. and someone got soo mad. even though i doubt itll become a big issue anymore, i know i shouldnt have done certain things and i pulled some dick moves (even though it was mis-interpreted. but thats not the point) ..i apologize. and im sorry. moving on.. my saturday morning consisted of fixing things, losing my pride, and a hint of a overhang. the rest of the day was filled with corndogs, e-tickets, hesitation, my long lost love of batting cages and failed korean food. all this before snots scary farm. it was madd crowded and lines were hella long ..but it was mos def a gazillion times better than the first time ive been there. (even though im sure nothing could go as horribly wrong as that night). my feet hated me and we were all pretty exhausted by the end of the night ..but twas fun. all the weekend activities lead to sunday morning where i woke up with a feeling of a missing feeling if that makes sense? so i went to mass this morning for the first time in like a month. i stood in the back by myself and it finally hit me. as much as i feel out of place at times and as much hesitation that i still feel ..i miss it. ive realized that lately ive been completely oblivious to the difference between priorities and options ..and wants and needs. when it comes down to it, basically ive forgotten that.. if i put HIM first ..he'll take care of the rest and everything will fall into place. october is always crucial and as i look back on it.. life changing in some way. its already the 12th. its neva neva too late for anything. get on itttt. on a whole notha note.. shoutout to the man, the myth, the legend. from mariokart, ML, alcoholism, gals, musica, and too much more ..jan squared was always like that older brother. aww. haha ..happy mothafuckin birdie to the man who you could always asscociate with a garage. we'll be famous soon, dont trip. im outttttt like the phillies in seven
p.s. guess whos seein coldplay on nov25th suckaaaa.