try this:

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg

and heres the personal profile it gave me:

At this time you are really feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about you and you are looking for some sort of protection from this state of affairs. Ideally you are seeking a peaceful condition and a tranquil environment in which you can be afforded the chance to relax and recover.!!!

Which ever way you turn you feel that you are being utterly thwarted. There is considerable conflict in the air but you will stick to your beliefs and not be deterred in endeavouring to attain your objectives.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of ''Should I?' or 'Shouldn't I?" At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.

You seem to be always on the defensive and that is because you have failed to establish yourself in a manner consistent with your own high opinion of yourself. You are trying to prove yourself with inadequate resources and this has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to escape from these excessive demands on your reserves by adopting a defensive attitude in which you refuse to be committed or to be involved in further unpleasantness.



damn, on point like fucking needles.

cold as ice.

two new models for louis vuittons spring footwar. only 800 george washingtons. only. someone just pass me my sk8 his.

viva la heartbreak.

i've been stuck on two cds as of late, and two cds only:

viva la hova. production is sick on this ..specially mixed in with hov's classics. rawww. merry xmas: http://www.sendspace.com/file/8tkhtd

808s and heartbreak. i dont give a flying fuck what anyone says ..but this album is just b-a-n-a-n-a-s. good music is definitely in the building. go cop it ..it dropped today.

so crazy in lost.

whats been up buttacup. damnnn, where am i. "its been a trip" ..is the only way i can describe what ive been doing and feeling lately. (take that in whatever way you want) ..lots of woulda's, some coulda's, and definitely a lot of shoulda's. to re-call everything would be impossible, so for your curiosity and reading pleasure ill just update you with the recent events that stand out. i'll take it back to october 19th, the night that shoulda changed my life. heard what i needed to hear, knew what i had to do, had to the help to do it ..and yet again, i found a way to go downhill from there. that week was jus straight up overwhelming to begin with. the 23rd always bitch slaps me in the face and this year didnt fail to bring the pain. of course, with schrollaween around the corner, my partyboy side wouldnt let that get the best of me. ..on thursday, spiderman and i mobbed out to the heist. suprise daft punk set? be jealous. easily made my halloween for me cause friday was just filled with frustration, mixed feelings, shady business, broken bongs, ducked phone calls and too much alcohol. not a good combo. i've been over it though. besides all that.. most of my time went to papers galore, sportsfest playoffs, and runing away/hiding from everything. thank god for last weekend though. "stopped by" an acoustic show with my NFL's. (niggas fa life) and a special guest. traditional knights sleepover took place after at the crackhouse. i'll never forgive myself for deleting the video of ej's classic speech that night. dammit. and im not even gonna front, the fires that weekend kinda scared me. but the highlight of the weekend was championship game on sunday. im just gonna make its own seperate post after this because i can. but for the last week or so ..i've just been chillin. a little too hard. if you catch my drift.. but today i realized how much i could be doing and that i've just been holding myself back. whenever i get this bi-monthly realization, i always say ..its about time to man the fuck up and handle thy business. but i always seem to find a way back to square uno. in the words of the late great aaliyah .."dust yourself off, and try again."

now i leave you with a few random thoughts: happy mothafuckin birthday to all you november mothafuckers. kost103.5 during the holidays = guilty pleasure. myself and crown royal still arent on the best of terms. i want a pitbull. im back thrashin on the board. i need to write. stop stealing my lighters. im not rude. and chocolate chip > sugar.

love it.