hope for the best, expect the worst.

so i re-read my last couple update jibberish posts ..and it kinda gave off this vibe that lately i've just been taking time to enjoy things and kinda just cruisin' and not really taking things so serious. ..and thats exactly what it was. well, up until this past friday. hellooo first drama of 2009. after thursdays adventure, i anxiously woke up that morning filled with optimism and hopes for a dank ass day. can you say moded? a talk w/ my pops about an oil change turned into him saying things i think he's been wanting to say for a long time. and it was a lot. it was overwhelming. and it just sucked. my day was easily killed by 9am. oh, but it doesnt stop there. after, i tried to put everything behind me and not let it get in the way of other things i had planned that day. but certain stuff and misunderstandings didnt help. all i'll say ..is that you should never rush indecision. neways, thank god goldilocks and bride wars (no homo) were a good mind occupier for the time being. but that was temporary because more misunderstandings led to more trouble and more people mad. in the car ride back to cerritos, i feeling like i dissapointed too many important people to me and i honestly felt the lowest i've felt in as long as i could remember. but i also realized that it was all my fault. i had been avoiding things, pushing limits, and diggin myself a hole ..and the shit that happened that day was bound to happen eventually. oh, it definitely hit me hard ..but i know it was needed. its about time i fix things. being at my lowest only reminded me that its an opportunity to rise up to be even stronger than before. and trust me, im not wasting any more time. this past saturday and sunday consisted of fixing things and setting things straight x the getty villa x 3rd st. promenade x broken beds x fixed beds. haha. i go back to school tomorrow and a job is right around the corner ..this is a big week for me, but i look forward to the challenge. one day at a time... keep stuntin'